He was saying "I love you" the only way he knew how

Today was my sister, Krystal's, high school graduation. It was nice. I was okay with not crying until the end and the graduates were filing out of the gymnasium. I looked over at my dad, and he was crying and had tissues in his hand. Seeing the soft side of my dad always melts my heart and I ended up teary eyed myself. I get annoyed during award ceremonies because the same five kids always get 95% of the awards. Today was no different. It was also really cool though because one girl was in Portugal as a foreign exchange student for the last half of her senior year and won't be arriving at the Syr. airport until midnight tonight. She was the salutatorian so they had her record her speech via webcam and then played it during graduation. She's actually the daughter of the guy who played Charlie Bucket in the original Willy Wonka movie.

After the ceremony, we went to this 50's style diner called The Soda Fountain. It was really cool and now one of my top 3 favorite restaurants. The waitresses were in poodle skirts and there were cardboard cutouts of stars who were famous in the 50's, like Elvis and Marilyn Monroe. A lot of the menu items were named after cars made in the 50's. I had double cheese burger and fries. Before that came, I had some homemade Italian bread. After that, me and my youngest sister split a delicious sundae that had soft vanilla ice cream, peanut butter, and fudge swirls. I was so full by that time, but it was yummy!

And now I am back at camp, contemplating napping because I am tired! I had to be up at 6/7 am every morning for the past week. Might as well get used to it, haha.

I've decided I don't like blogging about my innermost thoughts and emotions. I think the main reason is because emotions are constantly changing. I can be annoyed at a person one day and then perfectly fine with them the next day. So there's no point in blogging about an emotion if you know it's not going to last. That's my opinion anyway. I think this might actually be my last blog for awhile because I feel like I never have anything to blog about anymore. My life at camp is pretty much the same everyday. I help cook and prepare food in the kitchen most of the day and then I relax and hang out with staff at night. If something really exciting happens, that I think is blogworthy, then sure I'll hop on here. But if not, then what's the use?

Take luck! (It's a camp thing) :D

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

I just had some fun playing around with Blogger's new Designer feature. I even changed my blog a little, nothing too major though.

I just got back from Krystal's Senior Music Awards. It was awesome! I ended up teary eyed many times. There are seniors who give a final solo. And their parents introduce them. So this one kid's, Aaron's, parents went up there and it was so cute, his dad could barely talk because he was crying so hard. And then Aaron went up and hugged him. During his intro, his mom said a few Christian-y things, and then said he would be singing "Here I Go Again," by Casting Crowns. I'm pretty sure I've heard the song once or twice but not enough for me to fully recognize it. Tears were streaming down my face, it was so touching. It was actually slightly encouraging for me. The song, I mean.

So my sister had a brunch thing for work today. Afterward, she came to pick me up from camp. As soon as we got home, my mom asked her why her eyes were glassy, and come to find out, she had drank around 1:30. So she had come and got me at the risk of getting caught drinking and driving by the police. Or getting in an accident. My mom said if she had known she was drinking and driving, she wouldn't have allowed her to come get me, and I wouldn't have wanted her to. She's had to pay almost 1,000 in various speeding tickets. She's beginning to scare me with her reckless actions. My mom said she lies constantly, and is always yelling at them. I think there's more of our biolgical mom in her than she would like to admit. Sigh.

Being home, and at camp, has put me back in touch with my roots. Today, while me and another staff member were painting, we listened to country music, and it made me kind of miss it. And then seeing all the cows, and smelling the cow manure. There really is no place like home. For me, at least.

Tomorrow is my mom and dad's 12 year anniversary. I think I am going to give them money to go out to dinner. They deserve some time to themselves.

Mmk, I'm outta here.

Tip of the Iceberg

Currently, I am watching Avatar with some of the camp staff who is here so far. It's been a really good movie so far. I especially like the imagery of the forest at night, when everything glows, so beautiful! I really like hanging out with them. They're all a lot of fun. Most of them. There's one person who no one really likes, so it's going to be an interesting summer.

The negative thoughts I had awhile ago are coming back. I'm reaching that point again. I don't want to be at that point again. I've been able to see how my group of camp friends is different from my Christian friends and I've realized some interesting things that have kind of pushed me further to that point. Where I don't want to end up. Soemtimes I wish there was more honesty. Instead of giving me only half, give me all. I can handle it.

Lord, pour forth Your love over me. Fuel a fire and passion in my heart so strong no one can put it out. Fill my life with a joy like I've never known. Lord, I long to live for You, and You alone. Bring peace and a sense of calm into my life. Rid me of any anger and bitterness. Lord, change me completely into the person You have purposed me to be. Use me in ways that glorify You. Father, I need You so much. Probably more than even I realize. God, I pray I use this summer to draw me ever closer to You. In Jesus' name, amen.