Breeerghh. Don't ask. Haha. I feel ready to explode. I don't know how long I can hold this in. I'm surprised I've held out for as long as I have. I've been having battles in my mind and although me and God are winning, I don't know how long I can last before giving in. I need to talk to someone, but I'm too afraid to, which is weird, because it's not really anything to be ashamed of. Satan is just trying to keep this area of my life dark and desolate, and I need to let God shine His light on it. Get behind thee, Satan!
This has nothing to do with my vagueness above, but last night, CT came to BASIC. Afterward, Kyle came up to me and talked about how when they were speaking, he thought of me and how my face lights up whenever I talk about Hong or Jing or Chen Shen. He encouraged me to go talk to the CT people. I didn't because I didn't think I was called to China, but now I'm kind of second guessing that. I guess what I'm trying to say is I have no idea where I'm going for missions, but I do know I want to go. I think I want to try a shorter missinon trip first to kind of test out the water, ya know?
Ready...set...KABOOM!
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