Chickenfest

I hate the "reputation" I have. The one where I am known to tell everyone about everything. I know I do tend to talk a lot, but not as much as people think. I do know I have to change this though. The song that comes to mind for me is "Who I Am Hates Who I've Been." I hate that this is the way people have come to view me. I mean, how can I expect anyone to trust me if they think I'm just going to go and gossip about them? Can't say I blame 'em. Another part of this reputation is that I'm always sleeping or look like I'm sleeping or whatever. This isn't the case at all. Friday night, I was getting a tad annoyed because people kept telling me to wake up. At Bible Study, it was the same. Just because I wasn't very talkative didn't mean I was sleeping and I hate that that's the first thing peole assume. I had a lot on my mind and didn't feel like contributing to the conversation.

I feel drawn to Natalie. I can't explain it. I just feel this need to sort of protect her and make sure she feels welcome in our group. Honestly, I feel kind of big sisterly toward her. It's interesting. I pray she can find her way to God again and never leave His side.

Tomorrow, my youngest sister turns 14. I remember when we were both younger and in the morning, it would be my job to get her up and dressed for school. It's crazy to think that next year she is going to be in high school!

Okey dokey. Less procrastinating, more homework doing.