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I am home for the summer, it's official. It's so nice to be home and see everyone but I know within a few weeks I'll be missing Oz, nothing against my family. I love them all so much, probably more than I let on. At the end of June, I start my summer job as a dishwasher at an FFA camp. For all you cityfolk, FFA stands for Future Farmers of America. Until then, starting tomorrow, I'll be taking care of an older lady who is blind and confined to a wheelchair. I'll have to do some laundry, cook her dinner, feed her, visit with her, read her books, I've been told she loves to be read to, and I lvoe to read so it works out :) I'm kind of excited about this job, I don't know why, maybe because I'm hoping it'll make time go by a little faster, but I'm also kinda nervous, what if she's grumpy or worse, what if she has a heart attack or keels over and dies while I'm at her house?? She can't use the toilet, and she hardly goes to the bathroom anyway, so one plus is I won't have to clean her up if she does, cuz that would just be too awkward for me. Shannan and Kelly are graduating in 35 minutes!! It's crazy how fast time flies. I'm going to miss you both so much and I'll be praying for you always, stay strong.
My mom texts now guys!! It's so weird but kinda cool at the same time. She used to be so against it and all of a sudden, I check my phone and see she's sent me two messages. It makes me excited, my dad also texts, but he absolutely hates it so he doesn't do it as often as my mom.
These are all just random thoughts. There's no rhyme or reason to them. So my roommate was watching me and Nick interact one night and she mentioned to me how I act standoffish around him and sort of disinterested in what he has to say, hearing her tell me that made me feel horrible because here he is, at least somewhat trying and I completely ignore it. For example, he was playing piano and my roomie and I were listening and when he looked back at me, I was texting on my phone which she informed me is kind of rude, and I see her point. And just other things like that. So I guess I have a lot to work on in the future. It was funny, he was playing "It Is You" and he was singing to it, but very softly, and my roomie didn't know the song so all she kept hearing was "It is you I adore." She told me later that she felt liek she was interrupting something personal. So I told her the rest of the lyrics and explained how it was a Christian worship song, which made her feel better.
Coming home has made me realize how many inside jokes we have as a group. I can say something and my siblings are like, "What??" They get confused and don't understand, like we were in my sister's car and listening to the radio. "Don't Trust a Ho" came on and all I could think of was that night at latenight and changing Helen Keller to Kelly Hopson and I wanted to sing it that way so bad but I knew they wouldn't understand. Ugh, I had to get up at 6:30 AM!!! We went to my grandparents' house to split and stack wood, we had to be there by 8. But we were done by 9:30, and now I am in my room, getting ready to unpack some things, and watch Shan and Kelly on a live webcast of their gradumatation. Congratulations ladies, love you!!
Peace out girlscouts. Oh, also, it has been one year since I've been saved and let me tell you, it has been quite a year, wow, I feel like I've been on a rollercoaster ride and the best part? The ride isn't over yet and I'm excited to see where it takes me.

<3 Dee