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Once again I find myself home alone, this time not for good reasons. My mom was at work yesterday and coughed. She heard something pop in her back and called my dad to bring her home cuz she was in pain. She was able to move around. This morning, however, she was much worse. She could only walk when my dad supported her. Her leg went numb and she started having chest pain. So my dad called an ambulance. When it pulled into the driveway my mom asked me to pray for her, for God to take away her pain. I hate seeing my mom like that. She's usually the strong one, the one who gets the family through everything. So it hurt me inside to see her so weak. I know it kills my dad inside to see her in so much pain. I've been praying and praying and praying. It's all I can do. It's the only thing I know to do. I just wish I had someone here I could talk to, I just need someone to hug me and tell me everything's gonna be ok, but I know I won't believe it wholly because God's the only one who knows that.
On a side note, my parents are considering co-signing a loan for me so I can go back to Oz, I would be eternally grateful to them if they did. I can't believe I'm going to be going to camp in 5 days!! I think I'm mainly writing this to keep my mind busy. I'm trying so hard not to question why thses things happen. I'm trying to believe that God has plans for us to prosper, not to harm us. I need to be strong, for my dad and my siblings.
Another side note, I read a book in high school called My Sister's Keeper. It's coming out in theaters on June 26th!! I am so excited. I want to see it!! I love that author, Jodi Picoult. Anyway, I'm done here. Adios.