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Tomorrow morning I leave for camp. I can't believe how fast time is flying! And I don't know when I'll be able to blog next. On Thursday night, my dad decided to surprise my mom by bringing me and my sibs to the hospital to see her. We made signs that said "We Love You Mom." We stood outside her door so she couldn't see us and held up the signs in the door. She loved it :-) We visited with her for a little while but then we had to go to my brother and sister's chorus concert. It saddened me to leave because I knew she wished she could go with us or that we could've stayed longer. I had a hard time holding my tears back. Later that night she was talking to my dad on the phone and my dad said he couldn't sleep well the night before because it felt weird not having my mom laying next to him. That really touched my heart and got me thinking how if it's God's will, if and when I'm married, I would want my husband to miss me like that when I'm gone, ya know? But, my mom came home Friday night. She's still in pain and often needs to use a walker to get around. She won't be going back to work tomorrow, not sure when she'll be able to. The doctor said she has a herniated disk, whatever that is. I know it's painful and my dad has had them before. Today, my mom told me she called her friend, Ruthie, who is coming soon with her pastor so he can lay his hands on her back and pray for healing. Hearing this made me super excited! My dad thinks she's crazy but I definitely don't think she is and neither does she. Actually, as I was typing this, the pastor came with his wife. My mom, grandparents, neighbor (Kathy), the pastor and his wife and Ruthie stood in a circle around my mom and prayed for her. I kinda feel bad because I didn't join the circle, I just wouldn't have felt right. Idk. Now we just gotta let God do his thang ;-) Now I'm just hangin out with my fam, procrastinating on packing for camp. I have lots of books to read this summer, which'll be good when I have downtime. So me and 12 year old sis, Patti (aka Marshy aka Pattan) has been doing Bible Study with me and Andy. This morning my brother told her he was going to tell my mom that she was studying Jesus Christ, and that made me so mad. I asked him why and he said somethin like, "One of your friends who believes in Jesus has a Bible study." Which made no sense to me and I was like, "Yeah so?" Then he mentioned how mom and dad didn't believe in it. I told him just because they didn't believe doesn't mean my sister can't. Obviously my mom does believe if she asked a pastor to come to our house to pray for her. My brother can be very argumentative sometimes. Oh well. Everyone's gone now and our house is much quieter except the NASCAR race on tv, ugh, can't stand it, sooooooooooooo boring!!! I feel really bad, my mom just asked me why I wasn't in the circle, she expected me to be right there with her :-( I don't know why but pastors make me nervous, not even any specific pastor, just all pastors. I just get nervous talking to them. People are always wanting to see what I'm doing on here and I'd rather they not know cuz this is my one safe haven where I can write my weird, random, crazy, rambling thoughts without anyone questioning me and being nosy. By anyone, I mean my fam. There's just some things I'd rather they not know, as I'm sure we all do. I just want to thank everyone for their prayers and concern regarding my mom and such. They mean alot to me and my mom. So thank you again. I love you all. I'm not sure when I'll be on here again. So yeah. Adios amigos!! I'll be sure to keep in touch with y'all!! :-)