No, I haven't fallen off the face of the earth...

Ok, now I've broken a record, two weeks without blogging! And Facebook!! And I survived!! :-D So, what have I been doing? Working, working, working. But it makes time fly, it really does. So at work there's another dishwasher I work with and her name is Jessica. She is a lil ditzy. And I was so not looking forward to working with her until God showed me that she's been placed in my life to help learn to have patience and not get so easily fed up with people. I know it's gonna be tough but I think I can do it, I mean she's a nice person, just I don't know. And I've also realized she's there as a reminder not to be quick to judge. I am so proud of myself. I have read my Bible everyday for the past month or so, I think I missed two days at most. However, I'm struggling with how to actually study it and learn from it. And when I do learn something, I have a hard time remembering what I learned and how to apply it to my daily life. Oh well, I'm sure I'll figure it out. I bought this book called "The Wednesday Letters." It was AMAZING!! I suggest it to everyone especially you lovely ladies, it's short so it's a quick read. But it's all about God's forgiveness and how important it is to forgive others. I love it! And it helped me see that no matter how many times I screw up, God still loves me, I just need to learn how to love myself enough that temptation can't help but loosen it's hold on me. That Satan can't help but give up control of my thoughts. Yes, one day I will be truly free and I desperately cling to that belief and desire.



So I've found out that my younger sister, Krystal, believes I don't care about my family at all and all I care about is God and Nick. Ok, first of all, of course I love God over my family, although I'm pretty sure she doesn't know that that's how it's supposed to be. Second of all, my family definitely comes second. Actually, I've learned that God doesn't want to be a priority, He just wants to always be in our lives, He doesn't want a little of our time, He wants ALL of our time! And after everything He's done for us, who can blame Him? Anyway, back to my little rant, she also made the comment that I like Nick, but he doesn't like me, like that at least. Which really makes me mad because she has no idea what we talk about or anything, not to mention I'm 94.372841% sure she's wrong. Ok, enough about that. For those of you who live in a bubble, live sheltered lives, or just don't know, Michael Jackson is dead. I know this might sound kinda mean, but I don't really care. I'm not sure how I feel, I know I should feel sad, but I don't. However, I also don't feel happy about it, I'm not that unfeeling, well I don't think I am. I'm just like, "Ok, he's dead." I dunno. I think I've run out of things to talk about. Ok, I just want to say one more thing regarding the whole divorce idea. I don't think people should be worried about getting married. Because part of the beauty of it is taking that risk and surrendering your heart to "the one" (hopefully) and trusting them not to break it or shatter it to pieces. I think that's part of the whole process. And even if things do start getting rocky, I think any marriage can be salvaged, just watch the movie "Fireproof." I know it's just a movie, but I'm also pretty sure couples go through that same situation everyday. I mean, it's not like I'm using Twilight as an example... :-) I bet you guys get sick of reading such long posts, but it's been two weeks!!! Well, I hope I didn't bore you too much. Love you all!!!!

<3 Dee