I feel like it's been a weird couple of days. I don't even know how to explain it. Last night was interesting. And good. I really enjoyed the hangout. I can't remember the last time I laughed so much, and so hard. Good times, good times. It seems like it's been so long since we've just sat around and talked about Jesus for as long as we did. I've missed it. I really liked hearing peoples' testimonies again. Especially yours, Reggie and Ms. Cruz! Some things were brought up that have made me really thoughtful and contemplative. Like the whole gifts thing. I need to pray for God to shed light on what mine are. Sometimes, I get the feeling I have the gift of healing, but I've never actually tried utilizing it. Okay, I'm hospitable, but is it wrong or selfish of me to want more than that? I don't think so because they're gifts freely given to us by God. He's waiting for us to ask for more. He wants to bless us with them. He wants to give them to us in the hopes we'll use them to glorify His name and further His Kingdom.
Then there was the whole best friends convo. I just want someone to say they're afraid of losing me as a best, or even close, friend. And I'm not saying I'm jealous or anything because I'm really not. I think it is safe to say that I am afraid of losing touch with quite a few people. There are some friends I know I am going to lose and I can accept that, but there are others I'd rather not lose, ya know?
I don't know where to go with this. I'm not sure what kind of reactions something like this is going to cause. I know the reactions I don't want it to cause. That's all I am willing to say at this moment. What I want to say will be said to whomever it affects in due time.
Kapiesh? Kapiesh.
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