Love or Infatuation?

So, as a few of you already know, there is a certain boy who "has had me from hello." hahaha, its funny cuz I'm listening to "You Had Me From Hello" by Kenny Chesney :) Seriously, I met him last year and realized hwo much I felt the need to be with him all the time, some would call it infatuation and I would agree. But eventually those feelings died down a bit although I still care about this person muchly and pretty much think about him everyday and wake up with the hope of seeing him at least once that day. If I don't see him though, it's not like I get extremely upset. I made the stupid mistake of asking him out Fall 07 semester but he had his reasons for saying no. Good ones too. Then I decided to try again during the summer, again he had a pretty good reason at the time. So now, I have resolved to wait for him to come to me. It's just so frustrating because he knows I like him and I know he likes me back. I had a conversation with a close friend while iceskating and she told me just to be careful because it sounded more like infatuation than being in love. Then I had another convo with another close friend over Winter break and he told me pretty much the same thing. I did a lot of thinking and praying and I now know I was in love with the idea of being in love, I wasn't actually in love. But I would also say that I'm no longer infatuated. I just feel like once we're together, everything will fall into place. I have lost hope sometimes and thought maybe it wasn't meant to be and that would make me sad because I've waited so long and I honestly don't know how much longer I can wait. I pray about it every night and every morning I wake up with the hope that just maybe he'll take that leap of faith. Before Spring Break, I would act all happy around him and then when I was alone, I would want to scream and cry out in frustration. It just hurts so much, wanting something so badly. It's also frustrating, because you just wish you could know what they're thinking and why it's taking him so long. Recently, I've been told he just needs a push in the right direction and encouragement. It's funny, I was saying bye to him and Bridgette yesterday and she made him hug me, which made it even funnier because he gives very awkward hugs. Thanks Bridgette! You made my day :-D I guess for now, I'll just keep waiting and pretend this doesn't hurt me at all. I just realized I almost forgot to include the poem I wrote. Let me know what ya think, k?

For One Brief Moment

I feel my heart smile
A smile that spreads rapidly to my lips
I feel my mouth curve upward, shyly
Everything grows still
Except the frantic beating of my heart
For one brief moment
When our eyes connect
It is only me and you
As if nothing else exists in the world
For one brief moment