Random Thoughts Pt 3

hahahaha, so I think this will be the last post for today. So I first want to say I love all you guys, you have all touched my life in your own unique ways. I have been so extremely blessed to have so many people who care about me in ways I have never felt before, except form my family. All throughout middle and high school, I never really had many friends I could really count on. You guys are all awesome and amazing and terrific and I can't imagine my life without any one of you! I finally feel like I have something to look forward to in life, I finally have a reason to get up in the morning, mainly for God, to do His will and let Him use me for his purposes and also because I know with such great friends, I can pretty much handle anything. I have been reading Purpose Driven Life for 13 days now and in it, it talked about how everything in our life should be done to please God. There is a particular sin I have struggled with for quite a few years now and I would pray and pray to God to help me fight the temptation. After reading that part in the book, I realized it probably didn't please God very much so I finally strengthened my resolve to really fight it and end it once and for all. I agree with Shonda on one point, even though I have been extremely open in these blog posts, I know I would never put absolutely everything, I still keep some things between me and God. Anyway, before Spring Break, I had a day where I just felt frustrated and annoyed at almost everyone and everything. Most of it stemmed from an issue previously mentioned in a blog titled "Love or Infatuation?" I just felt annoyed at people for judging other people they don't even know, annoyed at people for being so opinionated even if they knew it would be offensive, annoyed at someone for just forgetting about me as a friend when I did absolutely nothing wrong, annoyed at the same person for judging the friends I hang out with, frustrated at teachers and hmwk, frustrated at myself for allowing these thoughts to take control, annoyed at people for their fake selves, annoyed at someone for making a judgement against someone that personally affected me, I just felt so angry at people in general. I couldn't tell you why though, just this overwhelming sense of despair and annoyance and hopelessness. Thankfully, that passed by the end of the day. I think that's about it for now. You're probably saying "Finally!" hahaha. love y'all mucho!!!