Why are you looking for love?

Last night went well, I think. God gave me the courage to say what I've been needing to say. I only pray the healing will begin. When I was thinking about last night, all I could picture was me with chains aorund my hands that were holding me to the ground with Satan dancing around me. Then Jesus came in and freed me from those chains. Bye Satan! I'm excited to see the good that is bound to come out of this. I have had a great day. i'm falling in love with Jesus all over again! My heart is just overjoyed. But there's something else thats been on my mind lately. Tuesday night, Ryan talked about how we all have something special and unique about us. I fee like I don't have anything special about me. I'm just average and don't have anything to offer anyone. I just want to light up someone's world. It seems everyone has someone like that. I don't and it hurts. I also need to be needed. I want to be wanted. I just got really sad all of a sudden. Perfect example of how life is one huge roller coaster ride, haha. blahhhhhhhhh. I am so overwhelmed right now, with everything. Honestly, I don't think I'm going to the bonfire because I want to use that time to do my neverending pile of hmwk. It sucks. " Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up. I need Your loving hands to come and pick me up..." Isn't it amazing how we can stumble and stumbe and stumble some more, and Jesus is right there, waiting to pick us up and dust us off? And He will still love us no matter what? It's mindblowing to me. I just pray I stumble less and less as I continue to grow and heal. "By His wounds, we are healed...." Amen!