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I don't feel very good. I kinda feel nauseated, but hungry. I'm thirsty. I feel shaky, and kinda sweaty. And tired. I have a headache. But I have things to do. After I write this. I feel selfish. I focus so much on my own problems, I forget others have their own. But it seems no one wants to talk about them. So what's the use in even asking. Everyone has their own confidantes. Even me. I never know where I'm going with these posts. Ever since last night, I've been contemplating and pondering. About a lot. Most of it saddens me. We're in a sorry state, our "family." There is no family that I see. Sure we get together once in awhile, but I dunno. I don't know how to explain it. I just feel so sad. So sad. Today, in Church, I couldn't even focus during worship. I felt like I was just singing, I wasn't truly worshipping with my heart. It saddened me. Sure we can talk about unity and blah blah blah, but nothing ever changes. Nothing. It's starting to kind of make me mad. We need todo everything in our power to help each other. It's hard to help people though, if they're not going to admit they need it. I need help. I know I do. I'd like to think I've come a long way in being able to open up. Correct me if I'm wrong. I'm sick of asking people what's wrong, out of concern and nothing more, and not getting much of a response. We all need revelation in our lives. We need to truly love our God. Not out of conviction or guilt, but simply out of love. I include myself in that. I need to stop being fine with not growing as much as I want to. I need, I need, I need. So much. THE TIME IS NOW.



p.s. Sorry if it seems like I'm copying your post. That was not my intention.