All the Single Ladies revised

So I wrote a post and decided there was some things I didnt want in it so I deleted it and decided to wrote this one instead :D Friday night, I experienced my first break up. I should have seen it coming due to the way he had been acting toward me a couple days beforehand. When I first read the message, it hadn't hit me yet. But when I left Ryan's room and went back to my own, I re-read it and then the tears started falling. I kinda wished my roommate had been there to give me a hug and comfort me. The next day was tough. I was constantly on the verge of tears, and ready to cry at any moment. I did cry in my dad's truck on the way home but he either didn't notice or ignored it. He was mad at me, again, not really going to get into it. I got home and my youngest sister was the only one who asked me what was wrong because I seemed sad. I told her I was and she asked why but I told her I didn't want to talk about it at the moment. I lvoe her, I know this isn't right to say, but she's my fave sister.
We ate dinner and then I decided to take a walk in the woods behind my house. I had myself another cryfest and spent time listening to my Ipod and praying. God pretty much told me it would be okay and that the only man I need is Jesus. So at the moment, I am perfectly happy with not having a boyfriend. God has completely taken my tears and hurt away. Sure, I'm still a little angry, but I know in time, that too will fade.


I think it is highly unlikely I will be able to make it to Oswego this summer. The only person who I know would have been willing to take me (my older sister) plans on spending every free weekend she has at her new boyfriend's house, she met him online, ugh. I hate dating sites. So yeah. It's going to stink. I was actually kind of glad about leaving Oswego, but kind of not. One of the reasons I didn't want to no longer exists. I'm gald he did it right before we all had to leave, because it'll give me time to get over it. Someone told me his breaking up with me would be good for us. At first, it was hard for me to believe. But now I see, you were right :)

I actually had a good day today. My mom made french toast for breakfast and then we all kind of just hung out. Me and my brother and younger sister and her friend decided to play croquet. I attempted a tan at the same time. I got a little sun but not enough to make any difference, haha. Then we ate Sunday dinner, and hung out some more. It's been a very relaxing and nice day. This week I'll be spending most of my time going through my stuff and getting rid of things and packing for Camp, which I leave for on Thursday or Friday.

Peace out homies.