It's hard enough trying to deal with my own doubts, I don't need anyone else lecturing me about why this apartment is a bad idea, and suggesting ways to get out of the lease. I tell them it's going to be okay, if only to get them to not go on and on about it. It usually doesn't even work. I have my own worries, so having to listen to their worries does not help anything at all. Blah.
Camp in a few days! I kind of can't wait. I feel like my summer will really get underway, ya know? I'm going to try really hard to dedicate my summer to reviving my relationship with God. Because, to be honest, it's nowhere near where it could be. Time to fix that! I know fixing my eyes on that will help alleviate some of the doubts I'm struggling with. So let's get to it, Lord! I think I'm going to refer to this summer as the summer of revival, at least in my own spiritual walk. I think we're going to get a storm tonight, I just heard thunder.
Sometimes, I feel like being angry at him would be so much easier, because then there's no room to miss him. But I can't stay angry at him, I just can't, which leaves me missing him more than I want. I just can't help how I feel, but I know as summer goes on and I dig my roots deeply and firmly in the Lord, these feelings will subside.
I'm not sure when I'll be back on here, hopefully not too long, haha. Anyway, toodles!
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