I'm in the computer lab and I'm freezing. And hungry. I am so glad we had that meeting last night. I think it went really well and having Erin and Pat be there was a good idea. I realized how much I like to complain on here, mainly about other people. I hate it. When did I become like this? Most of the stuff I complain about are issues in my life that I need to deal with, it has nothing to do with other people. It's time I deal with them. So when me and Bridge had our walk, she told me how I need to focus on God and not guys. I knew she was right, I just never really tried to do anything about it, til now. Idk, it's weird. All of a sudden, it's like that part of my heart has become numb for the time being, until God wants me to be in a relationship, with whoever He wants me to be in one with. Like, I don't even see Nick as a potential bf anymore, it's a lil disconcerting how quickly I've been able to let this issue go, after holding on for 2 years! Crazy. I think I was holding on because he was the only guy to show interest in me in a long time and I didn't want to pass up the opportunity, I guess you could say. But ya know what? I have Jesus, and He is more than enough for me. When me and Bridge were talking, I thought of a bumper sticker, or was it flair? Idk, anyway, it said "Dance with Jesus, He will only allow the right guy to cut in." I love that quote so much!
I just need to get this off my chest. Hopefully it won't make things awkward between us. I did like you, for a lil while at least. But I'm over you now, no offense, but guys are becoming the least of my worries now. And I knew it wasn't gonna go anywhere anyway. But yeah. That's all :)
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