More Than a Love Song

How is it that someone who has known someone else for a short time be in a relationship and yet, I've been waiting patiently for 2 years, 1 if you want to count from the time I was saved, and get nothing? How does that work? It makes no sense. I feel like it's unfair. I don't care if I sound childish. Whatever. Maybe I need to confront him or something. I'm so scared. Scared of what he could say. I'm sick of these conflicting emotions. Why is this happening? I don't know what to feel anymore. Why do I find myself wanting to spend more and more time with you? I need encouragement. We all do. We don't encourage each other enough. I'm not talking the normal "Youre pretty/beautiful stuff." That gets old. I'm talking like really lifting a person up, like commenting on a good quality they have or something. Maybe I should work on that. I should also work on my negativity. I find it coming out more and more this semester and i hate it. Especially towards certain people. Think positive! Thats what I need to do. It seems like everyones moving around. I think I will go against the grain, and remain right here in Waterbury Hall. Im wearing green nail polish, it reminds me of Shan, she gave it to me and it reminds me of her beautiful green eyes :-) If some stranger were to read my blogs, they'd think I was bi-polar and/or ADD :-D Oh well. I'm goin to end this post with some lyrics of a song I've discovered that really fits me right now. It's called "More Than a Love Song" by Fireflight, love them!

Look into her eyes
You can see she's crying out
She hidesbehind her smile
You can see the pain of doubt
And if you would hold her close
You could feel the brokenness inside
You would know she feels alone
She feels empty

She needs more than a hug on a holiday
She needs more than a smile on a Sunday
She's not looking for you to fix what's wrong
She really wants to know
Really wants to know she belongs
She needs more than a love song

Listen to her now
Broken is a beautiful sound
She's a little scared
She's afraid of falling further down
But maybe if you let her know
And gave her just a little hope
Somehow if she knew the truth
She'd come alive

She needs more than a hug on a holiday
She needs more than a smile on a Sunday
She's not looking for you to fix what's wrong
She really wants to know
Really wants to know she belongs
She needs more than a love song