Ped Eggs

I hate them. The grinding sound they make, drives me crazy. Crazy? I was crazy once, they put me in this room, a rubber room, with rats, rubber rats, rats? Rats make me crazy. Crazy? I was crazy once....I could go on and on. Tonight was a weird night, I've been having a lot of those. I guess it started when we were leaving Hart. I went to the bathroom and when I came out, everyone was gone. So I decided to wait downstairs and eventually everyone else joined me. Idk why, but I felt left behind, a feeling I absolutely hate. Then we went to the Campus Center in search of microbes, which was fun for a lil while but then I got bored and stopped in the Atrium. Bridge and Lisa went ahead without me, and never bothered coming back, again I felt left behind. I decided to make my way over toward the ice arena and then I find out that everyone decided to hide on me. I decided I didn't want to play because deep down, I know this is childish, but old insecurities arose and I felt like everyone was hiding from me, not on me. It was stupid, I know. I left and met Kdee on the way out. I was gonna go to my room but wanted to just walk instead, so walk I did. Then my phone died. I eventually made my way back to my room long enough to charge my phone, then I went over to Scales, bad idea, should've stayed in my room. I got kinda annoyed with people :( I hate that stupid game, the nervous one, so so wrong and not cool. Especially if it's Christians playing, not good. Awkward moments. I think people cause them because it's the only way they know to get the attention focused on them. I guess it works, but I feel like it's always the same 2 or 3 people who have all the attention on them. Idk. I'm just being a grumpy pessimist. Pay no attention to me. I was suposed to spend this weekend in an Amish existence refocusing my sights on God, but work got in the way, so definitely next weekend. I hope. Goodnight.