**HIGHLY EMO POST**

God, where are you? I need You so bad right now. Are You holding me? Because I don't feel it. Are You wiping away my tears? Because they're still there. All I can do is sit here and wonder where everything went wrong and if it'll ever be right again. I feel like believing in You isn't even enough to satisfy me anymore. I don't want to turn away from You, Lord, but I feel that's what it's going to come down to. I don't want to turn away from You, but I don't want to turn to You either. I'm sick of feeling like I'm praying to no one. Father, I just need some sign You're listening, I'm slowly slipping under and I don't have the strength to stop myself from going under completely.