We Are Family

Wow, boy did we all need that. I think the family/prayer meeting was a great idea, even if our girls' night did have to be postponed. My mom had an MRI and the doctors found a tumor on her liver, not sure if it's cancerous or not. I pray it's not. When I was talking to my mom on the phone, I could tell she was trying not to cry. Afterward, I just felt so sad. And I started getting angry at God. Angry that He would kep putting my family through these things. And then we had the meeting. I had no idea people were going through what they were. Which is why I think it's important for us to look after each other, and every once in awhile just say, "Hey, what's goin on?" Anyway, while we were worshipping, I just wanted to be home, with my family. I felt the desire and need to go. If I had a license and car, I probably would have gone. But I don't. I still feel kind of sad, but I also know God knows what He's doing, and I just gotta trust Him. It's hard, but I have to. I love Erin and Patrick. They're so funny! And full of Godly wisdom, I look up to Erin as a sister in Christ :)

One thing was said that I really need to do. I have to give it all to God, I have to put forth 110% effort. My best isn't good enough. It's time to go above and beyond. I think tomorrow (technically today), I'm just going to spend a couple hours in prayer and reading my Bible, maybe take a walk, think things through, that kind of stuff. I wanted to take a walk during worship but I was lazy, haha. The other thing, about women's ministry, I think it would be so cool! When we were praying for Lisa, I pictured her running around and dancing in front of a crowd, it was like a BASIC Conference type thing, and she was getting the crowd all pumped up. She's gonna do awesome things, I know it. The very first prayer night we went to, I told her so :) I really think others would have benefited from this meeting. It was so good, and very muchly needed.

I told my roomie I wouldn't be coming back tonight. I lied. I'm back, haha. I forgot her friend, Jared was comign up for the weekend so I walked in the door and saw him on the floor and had a mini heart attack. Then I remembered. Oh! And when Erin was talking abotu how we build up cases against ourselves, I just kept thinking, "Yup, that's me." So much of what she said spoke right to my heart. It was crazy! I love that girl. I get to sleep in. Yay! Night y'all :)

P.S. To all my brothers and sisters, I love you all and consider myself so blessed to have each and every one of you in my life. I know some people won't see this, but oh well. <3