Only Time

So I was originally typing this in my room but then I went to latenight before it was done so I decided to type it here in the computer lab. I got a little taste of what next semester could be like. Full of awkwardness and I dunno what else. Tension perhaps? I love you both and I hate that things have turned out like this but it's not my fight to be fighting. Pride gets in the way of a lot of friendships, something I've learned throughout the past year or so. I honestly don't know what I would do without both of you. You have both helped me so much this semester, just by being there, through good times and bad. I want to hang out with both of you but I don't want to put either of you in awkward situations. Guess we'll have to wait and see.

Last night, at dinner, you called me your BFF in a text. I've been wondering if you were serious or if you were just being you. I think it'd be cool if you were serious but I'd completely understand if you weren't. It really wouldn't bother me. I didn't think we'd reached that level of friendship, but maybe I'm wrong. Or maybe I'm just reading too much into this. Eh, I tend to do that quite often, haha.

I'm happy to see Andy hanging out with us again. I've missed that dude. I didn't realize I did until he came back to us. He's a cool guy. Fun to be around. goofy at times, but also a good person to have God talks with. I love him, in a brother in Christ way of course.

There have been so many people at meals lately. I love everyone, don't get me wrong but sometimes it's just nice to have a quiet meal with like 3 or 4 people. I miss it. It instills in me this urge to just go to meals alone sometimes. Oh well. Two more finals and two work shifts! A college student's work is never done, ugh. I'm so tired, of work and tests and classes. I just want to relax. Tomorrow will be a week until Christmas! Crazy. My roomie leaves tomorrow. Kinda sad cuz by the time I get back to the room tonight, she'll probably be sleeping already so we won't get to talk before we go to sleep :( I love her lots.

So yeah. I'm going to go finish my paper, and study for my last two finals while listening to some Christmas tunes. Peace out girlscouts!