I am SUPER excited about April 24th!!!!! I'm a tad worried about money, but I know I can do it. I'm also really worried about telling my parents because I know they won't be very pleased with me at all. They're always telling me about saving money and using it for textbooks and tuition and such, but this is seriously a once in a lifetime opportunity for me! I'm doing it. The tickets are bought, so there's no going back, haha. I haven't had something so big to look forward to in a long time. I'm gonna take advantage of it. I'm watching Bride Wars with my fam. I think Anne Hathaway is one of my favorite actresses ever.
I realized yesterday that this past Friday was Christmas, this coming Friday is New Year's and next Friday is my 21st birthday!!! And 2 weeks after that, it's back to Oz we go! Hahaha, get it?? Oz we go, Os-we-go, heeheehee :D Sorry.
Ahhhh! Ya know how people say they feel completely changed once they're saved. Me, nope, didn't happen. I mean, I did feel like a burden was lifted, but I never truly felt on fire for God or anything, and it kinda worries me. I want to be changed. I feel like God should have changed me, but He didn't, and it instills in me feelings of anger, frustration, hopelessness (that I'll never be changed for the better). Blah. How much do I really matter in this world? Idk. Steve Urkel made a good point today on tv. He said, "You have to like yourself, no, you have to love yourself for who you are, so why don't I listen to myself?" I liked it cuz that's exactly how I feel. Yup. But, I've decided I'm going to try my best to brighten other peoples' days, even if I can't see through the fogginess and dimness of my own days. Cuz that's what people want, someone who will make them smile, not someone who just goes on about their own troubles. So that's the person I'm going to strive to be, while I search for the person I need to be.
Oh lifeeee, you sure do keep my interest, haha.
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