Red Means Stop

Why do I blog so much? Sometimes I wonder if people actually read these. I guess it doesn't matter. I need to just stop everything. Thoughts and emotions I have. Things I do or say. I need to just stop myself. I worry about how much I worry. Haha. I'm not comfortable where I am, but I'm not uncomfortable enough to do something, anything to help myself. I feel fake. Like I'm just putting on a show for everyone. And I absolutely hate it. I feel like my faith is fake. I need to stop relying on others. But I don't know how to let myself rely on Him. Why is this such a struggle for me? Why do I constantly feel the need to be loved and encouraged by others? Why can't His love be encouragment enough for me? In the words of Christina Aguilera, "When will my reflection show who I am inside?"